Over the last weekend, I sort of slipped into a depression. It was one of those days where I couldn’t keep my emotions under control or maintain any form of focus. What happened was, I took a little time in the day to practice Telekinesis, and found myself in a situation where I wanted it to move, and I wanted it to move now. Which as you can expect, nothing happened. I’m a stubborn one, so I wouldn’t take failure as an option, and I wasn’t going to call it a day until it moved. Some of you may relate. Of course this was the wrong course of action, but again, I couldn’t focus and my emotions ran rampant.
I began to push harder and harder for the outcome and still nothing as eventually an hour passed, and frustration began to take root. The more I tried and the less I achieved the more I wanted to just break it, or light it on fire, or even shoot it with my BB gun out of spite (It was close by). After a while, I couldn’t take it anymore and fell victim to lack of control and frustration and I flopped on the floor and stared blankly at the ceiling trying to make sense of it all. I couldn’t seem to answer any of the questions that raced through my mind, and eventually it seemed like my mind buckled under it’s own weight and stopped trying.
I began to look at the world pessimistically, figuring, ‘what’s the point anyways?’. For some reason the thought crossed my mind about Quantum Physics suggesting the world is in fact a illusion, and from there I drew upon my pessimism, stating the world wasn’t real anyways. I viewed it almost like a illusionary purgatory, a fake world where we’re here to suffer (it’s a bit emo, but depression does that to people). As I began to settle on that thought, my mind began to drift into silence, and thoughts stopped running rampant and emotions began to settle. Then something out of the blue came, that was outlandish, but strangely made sense.
It dealt with the big-bang, something that Quantum Physics adheres to. I wonder, if everything came from something the size of a pea, then it exploded to form the universe as we know it… then what made that pea? Since I didn’t know the answer to the question, I just sort of played around with the idea in my head. I sort of pictured the universe, dark, star and planet-less. No light, no matter, nothing. Not even the pea. Then I sort of imagined, these particles beginning to form in this nothingness, and atoms and molecules. Slowly it begins to form in this nothingness, this pea sized universe. Then I stopped, and wondered, what has the potential to make something out of nothing?
The answer kind of stumped me, and my mind went blank. Then I noticed something, my mind, was blank. There was nothing in my mind, nothing. No colors, no pictures, no words, nothing. It was just like how I imagined the universe before the pea. And I thought, well, the mind can potentially make something out of nothing, is it possible that the universe is mind based? Where everything you see and interact with is actually Mind? Like the world as we knew it was a dream, or universal meditative state. After that, a flurry of thoughts and ideas surrounding the concept flooded in, and the more they did, the more it made sense.
This concept, this world seemed based in perspective, and the world did seem to work based on how you truly perceived it, and believed it would act. Much like how one perceives a dream to be real until they wake up. But there was a few problems… I seemed to relate this idea to my mind. In my dreams, things aren’t as smooth, it’s a mix of pictures and colors and situations within a ever changing environment with an absence of logic. This world obviously didn’t have that problem… it was more static and rigid then my dreams. Then, the idea sort of hit a brick wall of sorts. When I look at it like that, it doesn’t really seem like a dream at all. It’s sort of when I realized I had the problem equated backwards.
If we start with the universe in the context that it’s like the Mind, then we must take into account that the universe was here before us. Which means, our minds in this plane of reality where created after the universe, inside this plane. Which means if the universe is like the Mind, then it would still be our reality because we where birthed inside this plane. Which begins to bring up the concept of levels of mind. This is a bit difficult to explain. It’s sort of like saying that any mind formed inside another would be on a lower level of mind then the previous. When I started to look at the problem backwards like this, I had a different thought passed through.
I heard somewhere, that scientists where finally able to hear the vibration of planet earth. As you may well know, everything has a vibration, and so does the earth. Well, they managed somehow to tune into this vibration and actually listen to it. It sounded much like birds chirping. They immediately wondered if the birds sounded like that because they where mimicking the vibratory sound of earth. With that in mind, I wondered if our minds where actually mimicking the natural function of the universe.
When you think about it, our minds do seem to work closely to the world around us. Maybe our minds are trying to mimic the flow and function of the universe. It also made sense in terms of Telekinesis. If reality is like the mind, then one would have to try and get their mind closer to the level of mind in which we perceive reality to be on, in which case our minds would be able to interact with what we perceive as matter more effectively. I’m not sure if that makes sense to you, but I tried…
It’s a thought that I might not be able to put on paper and give it the justice it deserves, but it is something that I plan to look into more and see how far this concept takes me. I do feel as if I’m onto something though. It may not be exactly as I described above, but I feel as if it’s pretty close. I also wouldn’t mind hearing your opinions on the matter…
Anyways, as always… Good luck, hope this helps some.
Till next time…
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